The amount of weight im losing is scary, when I went to the doctor before my parents moved I was 136, I went in the other day and now im 124, and I havent been excersizing so this is not a good thing. Ive just been so busy with work, and I feel so bad about eating all my friends food, I kinda just forget about it most days. Its deffinatly scaring me.
I work and work and work, thats all I do! And I have nothing to show for it. I feel like im not getting anywhere. My friends all seem like they are mad at me. I just feel like no one wants to be around me. Maybe working the rest of my twelve hour shift will take my mind off of it.
Im not the girl I was a few months ago, before school ended, before I got a job. I see the world differently now. Its all work and little to no reward. I have almost nothing to show for it. Im working a 45 hour week, which is pretty normal. All I do is work and work. Ive lost weight, I always have bags under my eyes, im always stressed, its hard to sleep, ive been having aweful nightmares, and I hardly have any energy. I miss my friends, I miss not worrying, I miss relaxing. I always feel so drained.
I just want one night to lie in bed with Justus, relax, and not have to think about anything.